you want what you cant have.

2 more days. Exams have never felt this long before. I am losing steam already, my brain is not working anymore. Maths paper 2 was fucked today. Like seriously, there goes my maths. Practise so much for shit use. In the end, it still comes to nothing and i am left there wondering if i am fucking dumb or what.

Moving on to issues tt are far less depressing. I am going clubbing on wednesday. Although my good friend, Wong McRon has address this issue many times before, i am still going at it. Clubbing is weird. Weird in a sense tt you know you are not going to have fun but still you want to be there, in the midst of all the music, hot grinding(which you are not a part of) and getting all high on shots(usually we cannot afford them). You want to feel pumped up, soak up in the partying atmosphere. Look at hot chicks and then look at yourself in the mirror, wondering if they ll even take a glance at you. At the end of all the drama, you ll go home in a cab drenched with perspiration, thinking, 'what a great night out!'. Okay i am lying about the thinking part. I wonder all the time, who has the most fun when clubbing? I really want to have fun but i dont know how to. Neither does mcron, tts for sure. Oh wells, guess we just have to suck on tt for the time being.

I just realised all the rattlings above is as depressing as the one before it. ogay subtle subtle about it yea?